A song from a bollywood flick has taken my attention span..completely for the past few days. After hearing it a million times, i began to dissect why it became the so important suddenly. While the lyrics are no doubt beautiful and truly romantic, i was transported to another very familiar place! The inability of a human being to exactly communicate what he is thinking / feeling to another in exactly the way he does! And further, his inability to comprehend the words and body language of the other...and life goes on!
I participated in a workshop last month that is helping me shape my thought process or should i say my ability to not let my thought process interfere in my life. A certain inner voice keeps croaking on my right shoulder, telling me things i should not be thinking, giving me insights i should not be having and sometimes the opposite. If you ever try it out, bring your awareness to what your mind tells you, its crazy. You will be surprised by the amount of traffic out there. Thoughts flying in and out, a million a minute, completely distracting you and taking you to another world, far, far away from the reality of today.
Finally after processing whatever we can process, when it comes to spelling them out, almost all of us kind of find a permanent glue on our tongue...isn't it! Stuck, permanently, when it matters the most, in simple relationships of give and take, in simple moments of saying what you feel, in simple moments of saying I'm sorry, I love you, I understand, I am with you, I get it, I meant to say and so on, communicate openly, communicate with a free mind, letting the other know exactly how you want to say it and exactly what that means. Fact is that most of us somehow get stuck on this path, the curious case of the stuck tongue, lost!
For almost a month now, i have been trying to practice just this. Say the most difficult things even if they lead to further breakdowns, with the hope for break-through and acknowledge the now, here and now. So i started a diary - list of people i need to call and say the things i have never said, list of promises i broke - to others and myself, list of unreasonable things i can do everyday to break through my own barriers and chains around myself and then slowly ticking them off, one by one...
Everything just boils down to the now. Here and now and everything else is just an illusion. Even then it is the toughest thing to do, even when it is intellectually stimulating but never having the courage to actually practice.
Bit by bit, i keep putting it into practice, inch by inch i move up and then move down as i tango with my own self...
I participated in a workshop last month that is helping me shape my thought process or should i say my ability to not let my thought process interfere in my life. A certain inner voice keeps croaking on my right shoulder, telling me things i should not be thinking, giving me insights i should not be having and sometimes the opposite. If you ever try it out, bring your awareness to what your mind tells you, its crazy. You will be surprised by the amount of traffic out there. Thoughts flying in and out, a million a minute, completely distracting you and taking you to another world, far, far away from the reality of today.
Finally after processing whatever we can process, when it comes to spelling them out, almost all of us kind of find a permanent glue on our tongue...isn't it! Stuck, permanently, when it matters the most, in simple relationships of give and take, in simple moments of saying what you feel, in simple moments of saying I'm sorry, I love you, I understand, I am with you, I get it, I meant to say and so on, communicate openly, communicate with a free mind, letting the other know exactly how you want to say it and exactly what that means. Fact is that most of us somehow get stuck on this path, the curious case of the stuck tongue, lost!
For almost a month now, i have been trying to practice just this. Say the most difficult things even if they lead to further breakdowns, with the hope for break-through and acknowledge the now, here and now. So i started a diary - list of people i need to call and say the things i have never said, list of promises i broke - to others and myself, list of unreasonable things i can do everyday to break through my own barriers and chains around myself and then slowly ticking them off, one by one...
Everything just boils down to the now. Here and now and everything else is just an illusion. Even then it is the toughest thing to do, even when it is intellectually stimulating but never having the courage to actually practice.
Bit by bit, i keep putting it into practice, inch by inch i move up and then move down as i tango with my own self...
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